Happy Birthday to me!

Despite the dread of my 34th birthday it was good day.  It started with a sweet card from my daughter, Carissa.  She truly is an angel sent from heaven.  Her card was just so precious.

I love her.

Flowers from my mom were delivered this morning.  It sure brightened my day.

Then my dear, sweet friend Emily came over and hung out with me and made me lunch.  Thank you so much! And then more flowers from another friend. Followed by happy birthday phone calls.

But everything couldn't be perfect, I had some not so nice moments having to share my kids with their dad on my special day and an unkind text.  (Not everyone loves me)

However, I have some very awesome friends who let me know just how loved I am by surprising me with a dinner party at Carrabba's.  I love you guys! :)  You are the best!

The day did not end there with surprises.  Just before reading scriptures and having prayer with my children I checked my email while waiting on them to get ready for bed and low and behold there was an email stating a decision had been made regarding my application to BYU.  (Now I did not expect an answer for 4 weeks) So I opened it with fear and anticipation.  My request for readmission was approved!!!!  I begin this Fall!  WOW!!!! Does the Lord answer prayers!  I have been so stressed out about what my future might be.  I know this was the Lord's way of letting me know that He has a plan for me and that He loves me.  I am incredibly grateful for answered prayers and the angels that surround me.  Truly the Lord uses his children to bless the lives of one another.  Thank you angels for blessing my life.  I am humbled by the love you have for me.  Thank you for your prayers and making this such a memorable birthday.  

Starting over

I thought with all the changes I am going through I needed a new blog.  It just didn't seem quite right to be blogging on my site that indicated a life that is no longer in existence. So I am starting over, but not just blogging! That would be cake if that is all I was changing! Change is good, though, right?.  It helps us grow, we stretch and learn and hopefully become better than we were.  I don't think I was prepared in any way to be a single mom however, as my focus was on always being a forever family.  Although I feel a deep sense of loss I know I am going to make it.  I don't know how, boy I don't know how.  But I believe that God blesses those who are obedient and I plan on being perfectly obedient if possible.  I feel as though I am in the refiner's fire.  I know that through all these challenges I have faced and am currently facing I am being prepared for something.  I believe in God's promises and know that I have a stewardship over my children to raise them in righteousness and as Nephi has said, "the Lord giveth no commandment unto the children of men save he shall prepare a way for them to accomplish the thing which he hath commandeth them."  That applies to us all.  God will provide a way for us to do that which is right.  So I can press forward with a perfect brightness of hope.  May I always have hope even when all seems dark.  Discouragement and fear have a way of beating me down but I pray that I might resist the temptation to doubt and be still and know that God is over all. SO here's to a new start!